wowza. it's official.

Friday, August 15, 2008

So... I guess I should let you know that I'm engaged.
To be married.
To my ex-husband.

Wow, isnt that a weird statement to make? In a good way of course.
A very good weird.

After a day of making amends with family, friends and pastors and also seeking their counsel and approval... Hubs came home and proclaimed his love for me. Moments later he had to run outside to grab his 'phone' and then asked me to come outside to look 'at the mess the kids made'... which was funny cause I thought they cleaned up all their toys in the yard. As I made my way to the backyard he grabbed my hands and again told me how much he loved me, how he was going to make me happy and how he would never cause me pain again, and then while holding my hand he got down on one knee and asked me if I would be his wife again and spend the rest of my life with him and make him the happiest man in the world. And then popped out the gorgeous ring he had in his pocket.

I said YES! Of course I will marry you again!

Moments later we woke the kids up from their nap to tell them. Bubba was SO over the moon excited and really happy. The kid didn't stop smiling all night it seems. It took a while for it to sink in for Moo, as she was half asleep when we broke the news. When she was fully awake I sat down with her and talked about it and she just smiled and giggled and hugged me... she is really happy too.

As if that wasnt enough, we are planning on marrying before he returns to Iraq in less than two weeks. We both have peace and sense of feeling that now is the right time, and there is no point really in delaying anything until he gets back in January. We have the full go ahead and support of my parents and our pastors in this, and they have even been the ones encouraging us behind the scenes to do it now rather than next year... so we are just gonna go for it.

We both know without one doubt that it is the Lord who has ordained this reconcilation. So many things have happened, God has answered so many very specific prayers and shown Himself to be right in the midst of this restoration project that is occuring. I know that Hubs is genuine and truly a changed and restored man. Not a perfect man, but a man who is validated by the love of Jesus and seeking and living a life to do what is pleasing to the Lord. A man who is humble enough to recieve correction and exhortation and who seeks out the wisdom of other seasoned and established Christians for help and guidance as he has begun living this new life of transparency and authenticity in who Christ has created Him to be and wants to create in Him.

I am overjoyed and honestly the most at peace and content I have ever been in all my life. I know that right now I am exactly right where the Lord has placed me and He is directing our steps and plans.

We have very few days remaining it seems for his leave time before he returns to Iraq. Our ceremony will be short, sweet and simple. It will be a small ceremony as the focus this time around isnt on having a big "to-do" over our wedding day, but on the Lord and the start of our new lives again as husband and wife and parents to our children.

FYI: Please dont be offended if you find out about all this news via word of mouth, this blog, and email or text message... our days together are limited and I personally have zero desire to write or call everyone we know and love personally to fill them in; I will do what is easiest and least time consuming so I have more time to spend with my future husband and enjoying all the moments we have left over the next 11 days. I appreciate your understanding in this aspect.

Anyways, I must get my beauty rest... I'm going to be a bride in a few days!